It started 10 years ago....

*poss trig alert*

10 years ago it was the year 2000. I was childless but expecting my son. I had no IF issues and it took me 1 month to get pregnant. I took that for granted. The next year, I wasn't trying but got pregnant on BCPs and that resulted in a m/c, not 4 weeks later I was pregnant again....no IF issues and totally ignorant about TTC efforts. Why did it come so easy then? Here is my theory....

I truly believe that there is a reason for everything. We never know what the reasons are, but I believe that God gives us what we can handle. As much as it hurts now, month after month, there has to be some sort of reason beyond us as to why we aren't getting pregnant. I think that the reason I was given my first 2 children so easily is because it caused me to grow up and have the family that I really didn't have. I grew up an only child with a single-mother and the lessons I have learned since they were born have been priceless.

Now, why can't we be successful at TTC? There could be many reasons. Maybe God doesn't believe we can handle anymore, maybe He thinks that someone else deserves it more, maybe He is testing my/our faith... Whatever the reason, I will never lose faith..and even when I am forced to stop TTC because of the problems, I will probably always have faith. I have learned so much about TTC and the emotions involved and I have gained so many friends, maybe this is what my lesson is...who knows. But I have been extremely humbled in thinking that we have control over this. I have apologized to people I have known in the past that had a hard time TTC because I probably said something to them unknowingly that may have offended them, like the "relax". I will never ever think the same way and I will always have empathy & sympathy for those who have had or are having a hard time TTC.

I pray with all my heart for each of my friends TTC that you will see a BFP and that it will result in a healthy baby....

*******BABY DUST******* to all of you!