**possible trig alert**
So, I wrote on here about a month ago about my DH adopting my 2 bio children. We received word today that our hearing is Monday, April 18th... We will be married exactly 3 years and 3 months on that day. March 1st was the first publication date. March 1st my divorce was also final. We had 3 publications with no response. Our hearing is with a judge on the 3rd floor. I am officially changing my lucky number from 6 to 3... Good things happen in 3's for us??
Monday, April 11, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Done
I think I'm kind of over this blogging thing, probably because I'm trying to get over TTC and move on. I haven't seen results and we already hit the 3 year mark a few months ago and endo is coming back hard. I'm severly depressed and I'm not sure how to handle things right now. I'm sick, all of the time. I think that part of it is actual illness and part is the depression walking over me.
Death is nearing all around me. I have so many close family members that have recently been diagnosed with horrible things and don't have much time. I don't know how I'm going to deal with all of this. I don't sleep, I stay awake all hours of the night with anxiety about different things in life and I'm about to hit a breaking point. I have a doctor's appt tomorrow for a yearly visit, and I'm feeling I will address all of this with him.
I have to TAB from this blog for now. I haven't been updating but once a month anyway and I'm just not feeling it. I still read others daily and love and support all of you, but I feel like I have to be done with this to move on to a happier life.
Please know that I don't mean to make this post a complete downer and I am ok, I just have been recognizing some bad stuff that depression/anxiety has been doing to me lately and I wanna nip it in the butt before it gets out of control. If you ask me, it probably already has gotten out of control.
Death is nearing all around me. I have so many close family members that have recently been diagnosed with horrible things and don't have much time. I don't know how I'm going to deal with all of this. I don't sleep, I stay awake all hours of the night with anxiety about different things in life and I'm about to hit a breaking point. I have a doctor's appt tomorrow for a yearly visit, and I'm feeling I will address all of this with him.
I have to TAB from this blog for now. I haven't been updating but once a month anyway and I'm just not feeling it. I still read others daily and love and support all of you, but I feel like I have to be done with this to move on to a happier life.
Please know that I don't mean to make this post a complete downer and I am ok, I just have been recognizing some bad stuff that depression/anxiety has been doing to me lately and I wanna nip it in the butt before it gets out of control. If you ask me, it probably already has gotten out of control.
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