I know, I know

I said that I wasn't going to have a trigs post everyday, but right now with everything going on in my head and heart, I really can't help it. So please bear with me or maybe not read.

First I want to express frustration with this new Dr office that I found. I chose it because honestly, they do u/s at every appt with no additional cause and for peace of mind, I would love that. But now, I'm second guessing my decision. First, it was like pulling teeth just to have them do a Blood test. Then, I called back before my Weds draw to see if they would add progesterone because of my prev m/c, that was worse than pulling teeth. Then yesterday, when I thought this was all coming to an end because of the prog number, the stupid ass nurse bluntly just told me to take the progesterone and they will see me next Friday, because they don't just keep repeating blood work. I wanted to reach through the phone and rip her head off.

My first thought was you stupid chick, you use an outside lab, so what cost is it to your clinic to write out a piece of paper and let me go to the vampires. Seriously! And can't there be an exception to that when someone is 'threatening m/c', which is what they told me with the low prog number. They also do minimal infertility work and I swear that I would never in a million years go to them for infertility based on the way they have done things so far.

So know, I am looking around for a possible new dr, I haven't actually seen anyone in their office so I don't think that it matters and maybe someone else would want to monitor this nasty ass progesterone. Which leads me to the side effects of it. About an hour after I took the first pill, I started feeling icky, this has continued and I don't like it. But I would do anything to keep this baby growing and safe.