I have had a very heavy heart most of my life. I have 2 seperate families as my mother and father divorced when I was a baby. I have alway felt that when I was with each family that I couldn't really talk about or love the other family while in their presence. I grew up always feeling like I didn't know where I belonged because I felt like I only 1/2 belonged to each side.
When I was 15 years old I moved in with my dad during the summer. That summer he met and married his current wife who had 4 kids. After she and her kids moved in, I had a friend that I snuck out to be with one night at the advice of my older step sister who in turn went and woke up my dad and told him. Things got crazy and I went back to live with my mom. They never spoke to me again. They moved to Kentucky. It wasn't until I had my 2 children that we let each other back in each others lives. I whole heartedly gave my all to try and make the relationship work. When I moved to Alabama to be with my husband something changed. We no longer really kept as good track anymore. But we were on each others face.book and I still felt I could get in contact if needed. Well, everyday I'm hurt because I see their comments to my step-mom's kids and how they are and I have made numerous posts and messages without anything in return.
As part of my NEW BEGINNINGS, I'm letting go of things that don't benefit me, my kids or my life. I deleted them off of my facebook, all of them. I actually did a pretty big overhaul and deleted all the 'friends' on my facebook that I just added because I knew them. I only left people that I care about and actually comment and follow on. I'm tired of having this heavy burden on my heart and in my life and I just hope and pray that I wasn't hasty and made the right decision. I have been thinking about it for a very long time.
4 comments:
(((HUGS))) That is such a sad situation. I don't blame you one bit for deleting them from your FB. You can only do half of the work required to maintain your relationships, and they aren't doing the other half. I hope that changes soon, but in the meantime I think you're doing what's best for you by letting go.
I agree with Kitty... you are only half of the relationship, and you can only do so much to make that relationship work, so try not to be too hard on yourself. You are making the best decisions for yourself and your children. (((HUGS)))
That had to be a hard thing to do but I am really PROUD of you for doing it ! Actually you help to inspire me to do that also...:)
(((HUGS)))
I am very proud of you too. We will be your family. We know you pretty well, I'd think. ;)
(Hugs)
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