What a Dream

One might say that I must just be dreaming. I must want this so bad that I'm seeing lines. I must want this so bad that DH sees lines with me. I must want this so bad that I'm now making myself have 'symptoms'. I must be making my temp go up with all the hope, whopping 98.7 this morning.

REALITY: Another test this morning, another NOT PREGNANT result and good ole Spot came. WONDERf*ckingFUL!

The dream was great while it lasted, thinking that my due date would be Nov 13th. Thinking that I might actually be KU without miscarrying. Thinking that this was it, on a 'break' cycle. I didn't realize how bad I wanted this, or how much I really wasn't TAB until this morning. I guess AF must be coming. I would still like to think that at one point in the last 2 weeks I was with child/embryo. I can't be that crazy to see so many faint positives, right? I've decided that if it stays just Spot (crossing fingers), I will still go for Beta, but I really don't see the point since my faint lines are not getting darker and my digi tests are not reading positive...but I will still go, just to see.

**OH and the kicker! My DH's daughter is most likely preggers according to recent conversation.**