I can't sleep. It's 12:40 a.m. and I just got home from the hospital, they are keeping DH overnight. He has Crohns and some other GI problems and now there is something new going on. They said something about fluid in the lining of his stomach and that his stomach may have moved to the side again....so he will most likely need surgery. The doctor he is seeing is great, she works a lot of hours and is very personable and even gave us her cell number in case we needed anything. Of course, I won't use it most likely, but her thoughts are worth alot.
I can honestly say that I'm scared. Scared for him and what is going to happen and what he is going to have to go through. He has already had his esophagus stretched 13 times and a surgery where they take some stomach lining and wrap the esophagus and they have done a surgery when his stomach ended up under his rib cage. Now this. His family also has a history of colon cancer and that scares me.
And then, the part that makes me feel guilty to say aloud: What will me and the kids do if something were to happen? I know that is incredibly selfish, but I need him. He is my rock.
This is an eye opener and it definitely makes me 2nd guess whether we really need to be TTC. I don't want to bring another baby in this world only to the possibility that one of the parents is ill and only one of us can take care of it. Is that fair? Knowing all of his medical problems and still TTC?
Heres praying, hoping and crossing my fingers that he won't need surgery and that just the antibiotics will work the magic.
7 comments:
Oh my Gosh Tanya! I'm so sorry your DH is going through that. I hope he has a speedy recovery fast.
All of that was caused by Crohns? That sounds horrible.
With that being said, I don't think you can turn off that TTC switch. You love each other and want a baby together.
((hugs))
I hope he feels better soon.
(((((((TANYA))))))) I can't believe all this is happening - I had no idea! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. Please know I am always here for you. Much love, Jen (NervousBride)
Oh no, I am so sorry to hear what has happened. Please know that I am thinking and praying for both of you. Keep us updated when you get the chance...((((HUGEHUGS)))))
Oh my gosh Tanya it sounds like your husband has really gone through a rough time. I'm so sorry problems keep arising.
Sending up a prayer for you two and hope for a full recovery! (((HUGS)))
(((((HUGE HUGS)))))
Tanya, I'm so sorry. You and DH are in my prayers. I hope the antibiotics do the trick and that he doesn't need another surgery. Hang in there, girl.
(((HUGS)))
Tanya I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this. Don't feel selfish, your feelings are justified and you are scared... anyone would think those things! Plese know that I am praying for your DH and your family!
((Hugs)) I am so very sorry he's going through this. I hope things get better very soon.
You're not selfish for thinking about yourself. It's completely natural.
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