Well, once again AF had the wool pulled over my eyes. I had a little longer LP and numerous PG symptoms, (nauseous, tired, etc...) Spot had even been here for 2 days, which is weird, its usually only 1 day. Well, this morning the witch took off her mask and came at me full blast. YUCK. I feel like hell. I hate taking pain pills, but if I had some....I'd probably be taking them all day!
Now, I'm back to wondering if I should just go back on BCP and give up. I don't want to..not at all. But each month the emotional side of things is twice as bad as the endo and that is hard enough as it is. I can tell the endo is back and I was told at my last Lap that it would only bandaid for a year or two...well its been a year and a half. I'm gonna think about it all weekend, and make a decision. I don't know if it will be clouded by the endo pain judgement, but its all I can do or have control over.
By the way, I have figured out that the reason I have such and emotional time month after month is because I have no control! I can control almost everything in my life, except IF. I have no control over whether we will get KU or not and as much as we want it, it just plain hurts to know I have no control!
5 comments:
(Hugs) I am so very, very sorry you don't feel well.
We are here for you no matter what you decide. ;)
It truly does stink to not be able to control this whole situation. (Hugs)
First, WHY don't you have any pain pills ? Get a rx from your dr. They have been my lifesavers many times.
I have this BCP issues all the time..should I , shouldn't I ? Still on the fence today with it .
I understand how you feel about having no control,it is hard to let go . Just know that we are here for you.
(((HUGS)))
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I'm so sorry, Tanya. I'll be thinking about you.
I"m so sorry AF found you Tanya. I know being on this rollercoaster sucks...we will all be here for you whatever decision you make.
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Sorry AF showed Tanya! Please go get some pain pills.
How long have you been TTC?
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