So, I'm copying this from Angie's Blog. I did realize that there is no #11, so I'm making one up to put in there!
Rules:
You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.
No.
Explanations.
Here goes....
1. Yourself: WORRIER
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend husband: BEST
3. Your hair: BLECHT
4. Your mother/stepmother: HEADSTRONG
5. Your dog: GONE :(
6. Your favorite item: LAPTOP
7. Your dream last night: VIVID
8. Your favorite drink: COKE
9. Your dream car: SUV
10. The room you are in: LIVING
11. Your home: MINE
12. Your fear: MONEY
13. What you want to be in 10 years: HAPPY
14. Who you hung out with last night: FAMILY
15. What you’re not: SKINNY
16. Muffin: BANANANUT
17: One of your wish list items: BABY
18: Time: 8
19. The last thing you did: TALK
20. What you are wearing: COMFY
21. Your favorite weather: CALM
22. Your favorite book: HAPPY
23. The last thing you ate: QUESADILLA
24. Your life: CRAZY
25. Your mood: VARIES
26. Your best friend(S): LOYAL
27. What are you thinking about right now? THIS
28. Your car: MERCURY
29. What are you doing at the moment?: TYPING
30. Your summer: FUN
31. Your relationship status: MARRIED
32. What is on your TV?: NOTHING
33. What is the weather like?: COOL
34. When is the last time you laughed?: YESTERDAY
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
CD1 for me....
So this month was the 1st month on BCPs and it was HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had spotting from day 12 through 24. I have had spotting since Saturday night, I was thinking that it was AF since all active pills were gone but found out different today. I have had a headache for a month and for the last 4 days it has been at a Migraine level. I have had recurrent Diarrhea for the last 4 days thanks to my Endo. And CRAMPS up the ASS for the last week!
All that and this is just the Damn beginning, apparently all of that was just the PMS and now, now I am experiencing the Bitch!
I am sorry for all the profanity in this post, but I am pretty miserable and I am wondering what the hell I was thinking. I am in between insurance since we just moved and it will probably be a couple months before we are eligible. I won't be taking BCPs after AF leaves though. My body actually treats me better without it and I thought that was bad.
All that and this is just the Damn beginning, apparently all of that was just the PMS and now, now I am experiencing the Bitch!
I am sorry for all the profanity in this post, but I am pretty miserable and I am wondering what the hell I was thinking. I am in between insurance since we just moved and it will probably be a couple months before we are eligible. I won't be taking BCPs after AF leaves though. My body actually treats me better without it and I thought that was bad.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Good, Bad, the Ugly
The Good:
*Finally, back online! We arrived in UT at 2:00am on 3/23 but had to wait a week to get internet.
*Wendell is already working, through a temp agency, but hoping it will turn into permanent.
*Kids transitioned well into school.
*Everything seems to be just "working out" with no real effort, like this is meant to be!
The Bad:
*Money is going to be tight for a few months as we used alot coming back home, its expensive to move down the street let alone across country.
*We bought a truck pretty cheap but poured almost $500 into it so that it runs good now.
*Having a hard time licensing said truck as the owner was assigned as a company split up but his name is not on the title, so now having to get documentation that said owner is owner!
The Ugly:
*I have been on BCP's for 2 weeks now and I have been bleeding off/on everyday for the last week!
*Due to circumstances, we decided its best to TAB for awhile.
*I am having a really hard time sleeping and feeling "well", I am a worry-wart and I am constantly going over how things will ever work out even though they seem to be doing fine.
I missed you ladies, I'm trying to update myself on blogs but it will take me awhile!
*Finally, back online! We arrived in UT at 2:00am on 3/23 but had to wait a week to get internet.
*Wendell is already working, through a temp agency, but hoping it will turn into permanent.
*Kids transitioned well into school.
*Everything seems to be just "working out" with no real effort, like this is meant to be!
The Bad:
*Money is going to be tight for a few months as we used alot coming back home, its expensive to move down the street let alone across country.
*We bought a truck pretty cheap but poured almost $500 into it so that it runs good now.
*Having a hard time licensing said truck as the owner was assigned as a company split up but his name is not on the title, so now having to get documentation that said owner is owner!
The Ugly:
*I have been on BCP's for 2 weeks now and I have been bleeding off/on everyday for the last week!
*Due to circumstances, we decided its best to TAB for awhile.
*I am having a really hard time sleeping and feeling "well", I am a worry-wart and I am constantly going over how things will ever work out even though they seem to be doing fine.
I missed you ladies, I'm trying to update myself on blogs but it will take me awhile!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Manic Monday
Yes, it is Just another Manic Monday!! The time change is taking a toll on me, too bad AF beat it to the punch. She is being awful. I want to thank all of you wonderful people who read and comment on my blog, I always feel your support and you are great friends!
I had to give my dog away today, it is harder than dealing with AF right now! She was a full blooded pit and we couldn't take her with us because they wouldn't allow her in the park we are moving to and also in UT they make you buy insurance on your dog when you have a pitbull. It broke my heart, but we gave her to my husband's grandmother. She couldn't be in a better place. Her husband is now in a nursing home and she was thinking about getting a dog and now she has a very loveable companion.
I do think that I had an early miscarriage. I would have been 5 1/2 weeks. I didn't get diagnosed by a doctor, but with all the faint positives that turned into negatives at the end, I would guess so. And even if I'm wrong and I wasn't, there is a part of me that would testify that even thinking you are pregnant only to find out you aren't can be as devastating as a m/c. The hope is still there and so is the heartache. I know its sad, but I'm ok and I'm at terms with it. Its sad that I have grown numb to certain things. My heart is breaking but my head says its reality. I have had 2 confirmed m/c's in the last 2 years and if that is what this was (I'm counting it as such), this makes 3. I will now be on BCP for the next few months until we get established back home, I'm thinking somewhere along the lines of 6 months.
My little boy will be 10 on Wednesday. I can't believe it! Time has flown so fast! He is so big! He has been helping me alot with all the packing. We are almost done. We are going to have a busy week. Thursday we leave for S.C. and won't be back til late Friday, its my step-son's basic training graduation. Then Saturday we will be loading the Uhaul so we can leave early Sunday (around 4a.m.).
I don't know how often I'll make it on here but I wanted to let you all know that you are the greatest friends and supporters and I'm thankful for each of you! Hopefully we will get our internet on quickly once we get there.
I had to give my dog away today, it is harder than dealing with AF right now! She was a full blooded pit and we couldn't take her with us because they wouldn't allow her in the park we are moving to and also in UT they make you buy insurance on your dog when you have a pitbull. It broke my heart, but we gave her to my husband's grandmother. She couldn't be in a better place. Her husband is now in a nursing home and she was thinking about getting a dog and now she has a very loveable companion.
I do think that I had an early miscarriage. I would have been 5 1/2 weeks. I didn't get diagnosed by a doctor, but with all the faint positives that turned into negatives at the end, I would guess so. And even if I'm wrong and I wasn't, there is a part of me that would testify that even thinking you are pregnant only to find out you aren't can be as devastating as a m/c. The hope is still there and so is the heartache. I know its sad, but I'm ok and I'm at terms with it. Its sad that I have grown numb to certain things. My heart is breaking but my head says its reality. I have had 2 confirmed m/c's in the last 2 years and if that is what this was (I'm counting it as such), this makes 3. I will now be on BCP for the next few months until we get established back home, I'm thinking somewhere along the lines of 6 months.
My little boy will be 10 on Wednesday. I can't believe it! Time has flown so fast! He is so big! He has been helping me alot with all the packing. We are almost done. We are going to have a busy week. Thursday we leave for S.C. and won't be back til late Friday, its my step-son's basic training graduation. Then Saturday we will be loading the Uhaul so we can leave early Sunday (around 4a.m.).
I don't know how often I'll make it on here but I wanted to let you all know that you are the greatest friends and supporters and I'm thankful for each of you! Hopefully we will get our internet on quickly once we get there.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
What a Dream
One might say that I must just be dreaming. I must want this so bad that I'm seeing lines. I must want this so bad that DH sees lines with me. I must want this so bad that I'm now making myself have 'symptoms'. I must be making my temp go up with all the hope, whopping 98.7 this morning.
REALITY: Another test this morning, another NOT PREGNANT result and good ole Spot came. WONDERf*ckingFUL!
The dream was great while it lasted, thinking that my due date would be Nov 13th. Thinking that I might actually be KU without miscarrying. Thinking that this was it, on a 'break' cycle. I didn't realize how bad I wanted this, or how much I really wasn't TAB until this morning. I guess AF must be coming. I would still like to think that at one point in the last 2 weeks I was with child/embryo. I can't be that crazy to see so many faint positives, right? I've decided that if it stays just Spot (crossing fingers), I will still go for Beta, but I really don't see the point since my faint lines are not getting darker and my digi tests are not reading positive...but I will still go, just to see.
**OH and the kicker! My DH's daughter is most likely preggers according to recent conversation.**
REALITY: Another test this morning, another NOT PREGNANT result and good ole Spot came. WONDERf*ckingFUL!
The dream was great while it lasted, thinking that my due date would be Nov 13th. Thinking that I might actually be KU without miscarrying. Thinking that this was it, on a 'break' cycle. I didn't realize how bad I wanted this, or how much I really wasn't TAB until this morning. I guess AF must be coming. I would still like to think that at one point in the last 2 weeks I was with child/embryo. I can't be that crazy to see so many faint positives, right? I've decided that if it stays just Spot (crossing fingers), I will still go for Beta, but I really don't see the point since my faint lines are not getting darker and my digi tests are not reading positive...but I will still go, just to see.
**OH and the kicker! My DH's daughter is most likely preggers according to recent conversation.**
Friday, March 12, 2010
Fluke?
Still no AF, and I keep getting faint lines on $ tests. I can't keep buying FRER because I don't want to 'waste' money. I did buy a 5 pk of CBE Digital and took one today, the result? Not Pregnant...
Who knows... I want to keep hope alive because I have still been having post O temps and seeing very faint lines on the $ tests, but part of me says that can't be good. I have been researching a little about non rising HcG levels and there is a lot of reference to ectopic pregnancies. I will go in on Monday for a BPT if no AF.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend...
Who knows... I want to keep hope alive because I have still been having post O temps and seeing very faint lines on the $ tests, but part of me says that can't be good. I have been researching a little about non rising HcG levels and there is a lot of reference to ectopic pregnancies. I will go in on Monday for a BPT if no AF.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend...
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