2 in a row

Last month, I gotta say, AF was not normal. I know that it was because it was the C that followed my D&C, but I also now that I haven't had a normal AF in almost 3 years. They have been a little spot here and there an then came the flood.

This month, I'm making progress. Sure my C was 41 days, but there was no spotting prior and wondering if this was AF or when she was coming. So technically, if I were a normal 28 day C girl, this would be my 3rd AF since the m/c, but I'm not quite normal, but still happy to have had 2. It means that my body is still partially working, and I still get hopeful.

I don't know why I'm always so hopeful. It hasn't really brought good. In fact, there are so many reasons I can think of to not be hopeful, but I'm ignoring them. I can't let IF win me or my emotions. I may not have control over this IF stuff, but I do control how I am going to react to it.

Adoption in the works...

Possible Trigs ahead.

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Not the kind where me and DH are going to adopt a child, but the kind where the 2 children that I have from my previous marriage are being adopted by DH. There father is here illegally and since we broke up in Nov 2006 (divorce final in Mar 2007), he has seen them 1 time and sent a total of $200 for them. He has called in the past but not really talk with them (probably because his English is on a preschool level), and want to talk to me forever...which I didn't want nothing to do with. He has, in the last year, stopped all contact and when I have tried to contact him, he hasn't responded. My DH is my kids 'daddy' and they love him as he loves them. So the other day we went in for our initial appointment and got it started. I feel so lucky to be friends with an attorney that does family law. So the petition is being filed today and we have to serve him by publication. Since I have no idea what his address is, we just put it in any newpaper in the LA area for 3 weeks and he has 30 days from the 1st day published. Then we get a hearing to make things final. I hope it goes as smoothly as written.

Here I am again

Coming out of a bad bloggin week. I'm somewhere smack dab in this cycle and I feel like this month I might have ovulated, which would make 2 months in a row since my m/c and D&C in December. Could I be so lucky? I meant to pick up some OPKs last week and I guess I forgot and put it off, but I think I felt the lovely O pain yesterday so I think know it would be too late. Guess I will find out either way in a couple weeks.

On another note, my little girl is soooo sick. She can't keep anything down and if she keeps this up, a doctor visit is in our near future.

Hope you all are doing great!

Back to games

Yes, AF loves to play games and it appears she is back to playing them with me. It turns out the red I saw was just a little spot and again tonight, I'm hoping this turns into more as it has previously. Doesn't she know I just don't want to play her games anymore?!?!

*for Steph, I didn't get your email..... I checked my junk mail file just to make sure it didn't get filtered out. I'm not sure what happened.

Finally

I might be having some IF luck. Or at least AF luck? I don't know what I have, except that My D&C was on Dec 1st and I think AF is here and it hasn't even been like 70-100 days so that means that I cycled semi-normal. And honestly I'm thankful. Thankful that I only had 2 days of spotting after my D&C and now I'm seeing the signs of AF. I know that this sounds really crazy for an IF'er to be excited over, but this means that we get to move on and continue TTC and I don't have to call the Dr to jump start AF and pay out of pocket! Oh HAPPY day!

PS, please don't ask me how I feel about this tomorrow, because I probably will let the AF bug get me down and not be so happy but for now.... All is good.

Something has to happen

I need to see something happen up in this body o' mine. Like I said before, we are in a lapse of insurance coverage and I can't really afford to be calling my dr for a prescription to jump start AF so any day would be nice.

First Post of the New Year

It is also my 201st post. I forgot to add that the last post of 2010 was number 200. One of my New Years Resolutions is to be a better blogger, not just on this blog, but also on my family blog.

I haven't posted what happened at my followup appt to my D&C. It was Wednesday. I met the dr, she did the internal check and said my lady business is back in order and that if I didn't see AF in a week to call her so she could jumpstart it and then TTC again after that. She also said that if I'm not KU in 6 mos she can start doing other stuff. Silly woman, doesn't she know that this month marks 3 years for me and DH TTC. But she is my new dr and she has to see me 6 mos before starting anything, which is probably for the best since my DH changed jobs at the beginning of Dec and our previous insurance termed 12/31 and we won't have insurance until March. Please let nothing happen between now and then that would require surgery, radiology or an emergent care!

I am excited to know that she did say that in 6 mos she is willing to open up and help me. If we get to that point (I'm sure we will), I may be willing to venture into this IF game a little more. I never really thought we would do that, but now I do.

So New Year = New Possibilities. And hey, for our family as many others 2010 was not the best to us.. But it really wasn't the worst either. Happy New Year Everyone, I've got to finish up my resolutions.