Day 3

Favorite Television Show....

I wish that I could offer something with substance. Had you asked me 3 years ago, it probably would have been CSI or Law and Order or something like that. But now, I don't need substance because I don't really watch and regular shows, I watch alot less TV now that I'm married to my DH and I'm thankful for that.

Now, there is a bad to this too. I indulge in reality TV and programs that are just Drama. I find that these are the shows that unwind my stressed life because I laugh at how stupid they look on TV... BAD I know, but it is what it is.... When I'm watching TV, it is probably one of the following...

• Wipeout
• Desperate Housewives
• Bad Girls (They like to beat the crap out of each other... I LOVE IT)
• I didn't know I was pregnant (Mainly cause I wish it were me)
• Maury (only once in a while, can't take too much!)

Day 2

Fave Movie...

This one is hard because I am a SAP. I love most romantic comedies that I see. I guess this one goes back to my childhood again, "Steel Magnolias". This hits even harder now that my cousin is diabetic and on a pump. I still can't watch it without bawling. Plus, I used to wish that I had long, curly, red hair just like Julia Roberts. This is also the reason that "Pretty Woman" is my 2nd favorite.

A few more favorites I have:
How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
Marley and Me
Must Love Dogs

See, I just love the sappy stuff....throw in the comedy and I can't stop watching.

Day 1

Fave Song

"I will always love you!" the version sang by Whitney Houston.

This will always be my favorite because ever since I was in 7th grade I tried to get this song perfectly in sync with Whitneys voice. I am nowhere close, but I have to admit that when it comes to this song, I can hold my own... But only on this song. You see I'm a closet singer. I sing to everything, but I know that I'm not really good or even in tune most of the time, but with this song, somehow it just works for me.

So...whats yours?

Another Copy Cat

Yep, thats me.. But I like a good challenge and since I suck at blogging, I am following Dot's lead and doing the 30 blogs in 30 days challenge. Crossing my fingers and praying for the best. Here is what you'll be reading about if you visit my blog in the next 30 days....

Day 1 - your favorite song
Day 2 - your favorite movie
Day 3 - your favorite television program
Day 4 - your favorite book
Day 5 - your favorite quote
Day 6 - 20 of your favorite things
Day 7 - a photo that makes you happy
Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 9 - a photo you took
Day 10 - a photo taken over 10 years ago of you
Day 11 - a photo of you recently
Day 12 - something you are OCD about
Day 13 - a fictional book
Day 14 - a non-fictional book
Day 15 - your dream house
Day 16 - a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 - an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc)
Day 18 - my wedding/future wedding/past wedding
Day 19 - a talent of yours
Day 20 - a hobby of yours
Day 21 - a recipe
Day 22 - a website
Day 23 - a youtube video
Day 24 - where you live
Day 25 - your day, in great detail
Day 26 - your week, in great detail
Day 27 - your worst habit
Day 28 - what's in your handbag/purse
Day 29 - hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 - a dream for the future

Here goes nothing. Feel free to be another copy cat yourself... :)

WHY?!

Have you ever asked yourself why? Why you did certain things before or why you do things the way you do now? I'm having one of those days. I can't really say that I regret things that I've done in the past because I am a strong believer that what you did is part of who you become.  But, that said, I do wonder why I made choices that I did and today I just can't seem to pick myself up. I'm reaching a breaking point and I am having a really hard time. I'm not writing this because I want support, but more just because I need to get it out of my system. I'm having a hard day and I just can't pick myself up.

May the Force be with you!

Yep that is what I thought after going to the RR this morning, "may the force be with you". And she is, full force. At least I don't have to wonder when AF is going to show anymore. Score another one for IF and put me closer to the 'done' side. Funny yesterday flow picked up and I counted it as CD1.


Last night as I was laying in bed in pain from the Endo and actually discussing my odd C's with DH, I realized my time is about up before I'm really going to have to seriously think about a hysterectomy. My doctor told me in Feb 2008 the surgery was just a bandaid and I would only have 1 or 2 years to TTC, but he really felt 2 was the max. It's now been 2 1/2 years and there's no telling how many tumors I have in there and the endo is super bad again and now we are thinking PCOS per the irregular cycles...

Did I mention that my mom had to have a hysterectomy because of her cysts? They biopsied and found that they were cancerous and she lost everything in her hysterectomy. She was about to go in for a tubal reversal so that her and her DH could ttc as I was an only child, she didn't get her dream of more children either. I guess I'm doomed to the same fate.

Sorry for the ramble, my brain is working overtime...

I am at a loss....

I have no idea what is going on with my stupid body. I wrote a few days ago that I was seeing AF, well at least that is what I thought. The following is going to be a little TMI so feel free to stop reading...

When I see red, it is when I go to the RR and is usually when I wipe only. However, every once in awhile it seems to be heavy enough to fill the paper and be dripping from me into the toilet, therefore, I think that AF is here and use a tampon. Then when I go to take the tampon out, there is absolutely NOTHING on it, except maybe, maybe the tiniest of drops. What gives. I can go a few days and nothing, then have a day that this happens. Then a couple more of nothing, then again it happens.

Do any of you with PCOS have this? I have been diagnosed with Endo and fibroid tumors, but the bleeding that was caused by my tumors was different. Also, if you've had cysts, does this happen? I have had off/on pain in my lower back/hips to so I was wondering about that.. Any help would be appreciated.