Here I sit 2 years later...didn't see that one coming...how ignorant was I?
So obviously this was my last C before I hit the 2 year mark and now that spot has came, it will just be within the next couple days that her evil twin AF shows. Its kinda weird but I have now became used to good ole spot. She shows up like clockwork every C now, usually 2-3 days before AF. Hmmm, every month I have this wonderful intention to start taking Vitamin B, but for some reason, I put it off. I wonder if it will do my crazy spot and semi-short LP any good. When I first started TTC and monitoring my Cs, my LP was only 11 days, somehow now it is around 12 sometimes 13...which technically doesn't qualify as a "short" but to me it seems that if it were a little longer, maybe it would help things along.
Has anyone else used Vitamin B? Anyone else who spots before AF on a regular basis?
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
Not Exactly
I was trying to be so positive about yesterday and this whole year for that matter. This post may be a little queasy so if you have a weak tummy you may not want to read to the end. Also, contains a little trigs as it is a story about my little girl.
Yesterday my lil angel girl told us she didn't want to go back to school today and did the whole whiny thing. So last night after dinner she started complaining of a tummy ache. I asked her if she was really feeling it or if she was just saying it so she could stay home, she agreed it was the latter. Then she said it again and I asked her the same thing and again she admitted she said it so she didn't have to go to school. So I put her to bed. An hour later I heard some gurgling in our hallway. She was coming to tell me she needed to throw up and didn't make it. She must have vomitted 3 days worth of food because my hallway was filled, her clothes, face and hair were also filled. I put her in the bath, she started washing while I went to try and clean as much of the "chunks" as I could since DH has the typical weak man belly. I finished washing her hair last night and put her back to bad. She had said that her tummy felt a lot better after puking.
Not so much since she woke up at midnight throwing up again. I went in her room to see what damage was done and she actually was able to use the bucket I left in there.... MY POOR BABY. Needless to say, she won't be going to school today and I feel horrible that I didn't believe her the 1st time she told me.
Also, when she woke up at midnight, guess who else got sick... DH! He has been up ALL night puking and diarrhea. My step-grandbaby was over on Saturday to see off my stepson and she had this stomach virus...I'm guessing this is where all this came from.
Yesterday my lil angel girl told us she didn't want to go back to school today and did the whole whiny thing. So last night after dinner she started complaining of a tummy ache. I asked her if she was really feeling it or if she was just saying it so she could stay home, she agreed it was the latter. Then she said it again and I asked her the same thing and again she admitted she said it so she didn't have to go to school. So I put her to bed. An hour later I heard some gurgling in our hallway. She was coming to tell me she needed to throw up and didn't make it. She must have vomitted 3 days worth of food because my hallway was filled, her clothes, face and hair were also filled. I put her in the bath, she started washing while I went to try and clean as much of the "chunks" as I could since DH has the typical weak man belly. I finished washing her hair last night and put her back to bad. She had said that her tummy felt a lot better after puking.
Not so much since she woke up at midnight throwing up again. I went in her room to see what damage was done and she actually was able to use the bucket I left in there.... MY POOR BABY. Needless to say, she won't be going to school today and I feel horrible that I didn't believe her the 1st time she told me.
Also, when she woke up at midnight, guess who else got sick... DH! He has been up ALL night puking and diarrhea. My step-grandbaby was over on Saturday to see off my stepson and she had this stomach virus...I'm guessing this is where all this came from.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I've Got a Feeling.....
That tonights gonna be a good good night.....
Funny, but I never get sick of that song by the Black Eyed Peas. It just kind of stuck on me. And now, whenever there is good happening, it pops into my head. I am not complaining one bit because it means good feelings, not bad. : )
Today marks an anniversary of the day me and DH met face to face. We met online so I was way nervous about meeting him and him meeting me. For all the people who are against online dating, I just have to giggle a little in your face. I love him with all my heart and I have never felt as strong of a connection with anyone else. We are not perfect, we have our days, but we always make it through.
Today, my stepson leaves for the Natio.nal Gu.ard. It will be sad to see him go for 8 months, but this is a great thing for him and I am proud that he is doing something with himself!
Today is the last day of Christmas Vacation for the kiddos. I don't know whether to insert a smiley or a frown here. I love the time we have had to spend together the last 2 weeks..nothing buy mommy/kiddo time, but also glad they are going back to learn (and doesn't hurt that I get the "me" time back).. So all in all, I would say this is not a "Bad" thing so smiley it is. : )
Today, AF is not due to show (still crossing fingers on this one)...
What a GREAT day that makes today!
Funny, but I never get sick of that song by the Black Eyed Peas. It just kind of stuck on me. And now, whenever there is good happening, it pops into my head. I am not complaining one bit because it means good feelings, not bad. : )
Today marks an anniversary of the day me and DH met face to face. We met online so I was way nervous about meeting him and him meeting me. For all the people who are against online dating, I just have to giggle a little in your face. I love him with all my heart and I have never felt as strong of a connection with anyone else. We are not perfect, we have our days, but we always make it through.
Today, my stepson leaves for the Natio.nal Gu.ard. It will be sad to see him go for 8 months, but this is a great thing for him and I am proud that he is doing something with himself!
Today is the last day of Christmas Vacation for the kiddos. I don't know whether to insert a smiley or a frown here. I love the time we have had to spend together the last 2 weeks..nothing buy mommy/kiddo time, but also glad they are going back to learn (and doesn't hurt that I get the "me" time back).. So all in all, I would say this is not a "Bad" thing so smiley it is. : )
Today, AF is not due to show (still crossing fingers on this one)...
What a GREAT day that makes today!
Friday, January 1, 2010
It started 10 years ago....
*poss trig alert*
10 years ago it was the year 2000. I was childless but expecting my son. I had no IF issues and it took me 1 month to get pregnant. I took that for granted. The next year, I wasn't trying but got pregnant on BCPs and that resulted in a m/c, not 4 weeks later I was pregnant again....no IF issues and totally ignorant about TTC efforts. Why did it come so easy then? Here is my theory....
I truly believe that there is a reason for everything. We never know what the reasons are, but I believe that God gives us what we can handle. As much as it hurts now, month after month, there has to be some sort of reason beyond us as to why we aren't getting pregnant. I think that the reason I was given my first 2 children so easily is because it caused me to grow up and have the family that I really didn't have. I grew up an only child with a single-mother and the lessons I have learned since they were born have been priceless.
Now, why can't we be successful at TTC? There could be many reasons. Maybe God doesn't believe we can handle anymore, maybe He thinks that someone else deserves it more, maybe He is testing my/our faith... Whatever the reason, I will never lose faith..and even when I am forced to stop TTC because of the problems, I will probably always have faith. I have learned so much about TTC and the emotions involved and I have gained so many friends, maybe this is what my lesson is...who knows. But I have been extremely humbled in thinking that we have control over this. I have apologized to people I have known in the past that had a hard time TTC because I probably said something to them unknowingly that may have offended them, like the "relax". I will never ever think the same way and I will always have empathy & sympathy for those who have had or are having a hard time TTC.
I pray with all my heart for each of my friends TTC that you will see a BFP and that it will result in a healthy baby....
*******BABY DUST******* to all of you!
10 years ago it was the year 2000. I was childless but expecting my son. I had no IF issues and it took me 1 month to get pregnant. I took that for granted. The next year, I wasn't trying but got pregnant on BCPs and that resulted in a m/c, not 4 weeks later I was pregnant again....no IF issues and totally ignorant about TTC efforts. Why did it come so easy then? Here is my theory....
I truly believe that there is a reason for everything. We never know what the reasons are, but I believe that God gives us what we can handle. As much as it hurts now, month after month, there has to be some sort of reason beyond us as to why we aren't getting pregnant. I think that the reason I was given my first 2 children so easily is because it caused me to grow up and have the family that I really didn't have. I grew up an only child with a single-mother and the lessons I have learned since they were born have been priceless.
Now, why can't we be successful at TTC? There could be many reasons. Maybe God doesn't believe we can handle anymore, maybe He thinks that someone else deserves it more, maybe He is testing my/our faith... Whatever the reason, I will never lose faith..and even when I am forced to stop TTC because of the problems, I will probably always have faith. I have learned so much about TTC and the emotions involved and I have gained so many friends, maybe this is what my lesson is...who knows. But I have been extremely humbled in thinking that we have control over this. I have apologized to people I have known in the past that had a hard time TTC because I probably said something to them unknowingly that may have offended them, like the "relax". I will never ever think the same way and I will always have empathy & sympathy for those who have had or are having a hard time TTC.
I pray with all my heart for each of my friends TTC that you will see a BFP and that it will result in a healthy baby....
*******BABY DUST******* to all of you!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Horrible Ending to my 2009
This post may have possible trigs....
These are my dogs, these WERE my dogs. I now only have one. : (
My dog (Sadie), the white one in the picture, got ran over today. I don't know if you remember my post a few months back of an old dog we had that got ran over right at our driveway...well this dog actually was found in the intersection kinda by our house. We live out in the country where dogs roam free and the ironic part is, my Sadie would never go anywhere unless she was following Missy (the tan one). My heart is broken and so is my little girls. My Sadie had a little nubbie tail that when she wagged, her whole butt shook. She had one eye that was black and I picked her from the litter just days after she was born. She was my baby, you know since I can't have another one. Now she is in Doggy Heaven and I miss her. I find this hard to swallow as the last day of the year, but the hopeful, optimistic side of me just feels that it was better today than starting the New Year out that way. I'm sorry for having such a depressing last post of the year, but I'm hoping that 2010 is better for all of us, even those who have had a wonderful year. Now, I'm going to think about and write down some New Year's Resolutions that I can actually keep with a little work.
Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Not again!
So this C can just go on! It started out with me thinking that I was having a normal AF, which would have been a dream, but I should have known it was a nightmare. I lightly bled/spotted for almost a week, and at first had thought that it was AF. Then I started Heavy for 4 more days, I'm guessing to be the actual AF. I then had several incidents of random spotting/light bleeding. I'm thinking that it is either the fibroid tumors, endo or possibly a cyst(s).
When we started TTC a couple years ago, this same thing happened so I went in for the lap and D&C because of the random bleeding stuff and it ended up being more than I wanted to deal with. It was supposed to be fixed for a year or 2. Well.... Guess what!!!!!!!!!
January is the last month of our 2 years and February means 2 years since TTC and 2 years since the lap. I'm reaching the end of the road. I am now to the point that I am seriously aware that I'm probably not going to be able to have another child.
When we started TTC a couple years ago, this same thing happened so I went in for the lap and D&C because of the random bleeding stuff and it ended up being more than I wanted to deal with. It was supposed to be fixed for a year or 2. Well.... Guess what!!!!!!!!!
January is the last month of our 2 years and February means 2 years since TTC and 2 years since the lap. I'm reaching the end of the road. I am now to the point that I am seriously aware that I'm probably not going to be able to have another child.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Christmas Poll
Christmas Poll
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I love to WRAP...
2. Real tree or Artificial? artificial because I'm afraid of housefires that real ones sometimes bring
3. When do you put up the tree? Usually week after Thanksgiving.
4. When do you take the tree down? Week after New Years
5. Do you like eggnog? I like to mix 1/2 milk and 1/2 eggnog so it isn't too rich.
6. Favorite gift received as a child? Cabbage Patch "Mikey"
7. Hardest person to buy for? my mom, she usually buys something when she wants it so never left to gift
8. Easiest person to buy for? my kids, they always want something and they are happy with anything
9. Do you have a nativity scene? I did in UT, but all my decorations got left there
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I always mail Christmas cards.
11. Worst Christmas ever? I don't remember any bad Christmas...but my step sister got the Peaches and Cream Barbie that I wanted and I got the "dumb" one when I was like 6...
12. Favorite Christmas Movie(s)? I love all the classics, Rudolph, Frosty, all of them.
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually a few things in November, but my shopping gets serious starting the day after Thanksgiving right up til Christmas Eve.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Yes, one mans trash is anothers treasure.
15 .Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? We used to have homeade cinnamon rolls for Christmas breakfast...yum
16. Lights on the tree? yes, our tree is pre-lit :)
17. Favorite Christmas song? Winter Wonderland is my fave, but I like most of them
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? When I lived in UT, we didn't travel far but spent all day at different relatives homes. Now we stay home and go visit hubs grandma.
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Yes, Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen, RUDOLPH
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? One on Christmas Eve Night(PJ's) and the rest on Christmas. THis year celebrating on Christmas Eve with step-daughter so some will be open then.
22. Name one annoying thing about this time of the year? People are mean/nasty at stores
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I have handmade photo on wood ornaments my mom made.
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I am making another Turkey, they were on sale, but usually finger foods and snacks work for us.
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? My children to have a wonderful Christmas and my friends to get BFPs..
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I love to WRAP...
2. Real tree or Artificial? artificial because I'm afraid of housefires that real ones sometimes bring
3. When do you put up the tree? Usually week after Thanksgiving.
4. When do you take the tree down? Week after New Years
5. Do you like eggnog? I like to mix 1/2 milk and 1/2 eggnog so it isn't too rich.
6. Favorite gift received as a child? Cabbage Patch "Mikey"
7. Hardest person to buy for? my mom, she usually buys something when she wants it so never left to gift
8. Easiest person to buy for? my kids, they always want something and they are happy with anything
9. Do you have a nativity scene? I did in UT, but all my decorations got left there
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I always mail Christmas cards.
11. Worst Christmas ever? I don't remember any bad Christmas...but my step sister got the Peaches and Cream Barbie that I wanted and I got the "dumb" one when I was like 6...
12. Favorite Christmas Movie(s)? I love all the classics, Rudolph, Frosty, all of them.
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Usually a few things in November, but my shopping gets serious starting the day after Thanksgiving right up til Christmas Eve.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Yes, one mans trash is anothers treasure.
15 .Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? We used to have homeade cinnamon rolls for Christmas breakfast...yum
16. Lights on the tree? yes, our tree is pre-lit :)
17. Favorite Christmas song? Winter Wonderland is my fave, but I like most of them
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? When I lived in UT, we didn't travel far but spent all day at different relatives homes. Now we stay home and go visit hubs grandma.
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Yes, Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen, RUDOLPH
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? One on Christmas Eve Night(PJ's) and the rest on Christmas. THis year celebrating on Christmas Eve with step-daughter so some will be open then.
22. Name one annoying thing about this time of the year? People are mean/nasty at stores
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I have handmade photo on wood ornaments my mom made.
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I am making another Turkey, they were on sale, but usually finger foods and snacks work for us.
25. What do you want for Christmas this year? My children to have a wonderful Christmas and my friends to get BFPs..
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