Happy Again

I'm not going to say that I haven't been happy in the last 3 years, but this week has definitely been the best week among those last 3 years. I feel like I have a life again, not just a life, but a chance for a happy life. I guess I didn't realize how depressed I was being a stay-at-home-mom until my DH made a comment that he finally has his wife back. I guess living through this depression is kinda like having beer goggles on but in reverse. Sure I have felt sad and down more days than not, but I didn't realize that it consumed me.

I get to start my job on Monday. My background check through the agency cleared so I can start. It is going to be so nice to be able to have money left over after paying bills, sometimes right now I wonder where the crap we are getting money to pay bills. One bonus to the job is they offer free insurance to the employee, it isn't for the family, but it gives me double insurance so if I need to have a hysterectomy, I may not have to pay very much or any at all.

One thing that does get me down is I have put on 60 pounds in the last 3 years, yep 60! I don't really have many clothes that fit me and I need to dress up a little, not overly so, but not jeans either. I've decided that when they paychecks come in, I will need to buy a few clothes items but I don't want alot because I want to lose this weight. Until then, I'm going to have to be creative with my clothes and they may see the same thing more than once a week.

My husband also got a little more on his check than we thought this week so he is taking us out to eat tonight.. It is definitely going to be a treat! We have been stretching every penny so it'll be nice. I even bought the kids Halloween costumes last year after Halloween and got them on clearance, I pd $2 for Alex's and $0.80 for Breyna's. And they still fit them! Things are finally looking up.