Beta #2

185. After 47.5 hrs, it doubled plus 7. I did another today but won't know my results until tomorrow. My symptoms aren't thee though so I'm worried about this progesterone.

I caved....

I couldn't stand not knowing. I went yesterday for a Beta and Progesterone level...

HcG: 89
Progesterone: only 4.8...

Now, do I heed the doctor advice and take my Progesterone?  I think I have to so that I know I did everything I was supposed to in order to stay KU. I am glad to know my number is higher than 50, but I wish it was higher...

***Have any of you that have had successful Pregnancies started out with a very low Progesterone #? I started really low last November too and that resulted in a blighted ovum.... Just wondering?***

You are NOT going to believe this! *trigs*

I know I disappeared for the month, but I was emotionally unwell, especially with the 2nd m/c in 6 mos thing hanging over my head.
Caution: TMI ahead, not for the queasy. Fast forward to today or rather this weekend. All of last week I felt physically and mentally drained. I blamed it on PMS as I started a little spot on Wednesday. Usually I spot for a day then it goes away and AF shows a couple days later. This didn't happen. I have been spotting off/on since Wednesday, usually only when I wipe after using the RR. After FD'ing with DH I thought for sure I had started as a little more was there. Well, nothing happened, and still only spotting after RR. I decided Saturday night to go to the dollar store and take a cheapie. There was a line. Good thing I'm smart and bought 2. Sunday morning, a darker line. I guess I have no problem getting KU, its staying KU that is the problem. I am still spotting and not holding out hope yet.

I have no drive to call the doc for a blood test because I can't take the stress of it. So, I have decided to let things ride and have no worries (you know, like a normal person) and if I stay pregnant, it was meant to be. I am going to act like I did when I was KU with my DS and DD and call and make a doc appt for 8 weeks and hope I make it that long. I am not going to be going in for bloodwork to make myself sick over. And, honestly, I am not sold on the idea of Progesterone either as it didn't do anything for me. I am going to let things happen and pray to the Lord that I don't have to go through another m/c because 3 in less than 8 months is just not a place that I can be.

I don't know if I can really do what I just wrote, but I am going to try.

Who opened the gates?

"Who opened the gates?" A saying that I remember my mom using quite often as we drove around town in a swarm of traffic.

Now, this saying gives a whole new meaning. I suppose that my m/c is commencing as I'm asking the Lord and Mother Nature, "Who opened the gates?" I was lucky enough last December to have a D&C to take care of things and had only light bleeding for a day. This time, however, I'm begging for mercy. I can guarantee you that the progesterone must have been doing its job and making my lining nice and thick....too bad a baby won't be able to enjoy that cushion!

I'm having a Pity Me day, I'm entitled to since I'm bleeding so heavily that I actually had to ask my husband (who is amazing) to come rescue me by bringing my extra clothing and products because apparantly SUPER PLUS really means, "CAN'T HANDLE LOSING BABIES" and I've soaked through and leaked in pants and office chair. Good thing I found a brown sweater in the lost & found to sit on for the rest of the day!

Hope you all have a DRY day...

not good.......

They did another beta yesterday - 367

One week only up 70% for 7 days, didn't even double. FML

She can't do an u/s because they can't see anything when levels are under 1,000 and also my insurance doesn't cover it.... So now, I stop progesterone and wait...

Again... FML!

Not looking good

Yesterdays Beta:
224

Doubled, but at the rate of a little more than 4 days....not good.... I wonder if my taking progesterone is just making it so that I don't just start the bleeding for a m/c. The nurse really didn't tell me anything and I was just out of a meeting so I need to call back and get a plan. Wow.. this just sucks not knowing and pretty much acknowledging that this is yet another m/c.

Inevitable...yes, still *trigs*

So, I went to my PCP yesterday to followup on the meds he put me on last month. He is the doc that originally ordered my first 2 blood tests 2 weeks ago...the ones that were 6 & 16. Anyway, he asked how things were going. I told him that I really didn't know and that I had another beta scheduled for Monday.

And, since you know how I am, you probably already figured I couldn't wait that long, so I asked him about doing one while I was there. He ordered one for me yesterday so that I didn't go bonkers in the meantime.... The number: 99, up from 57 on Monday, but only went up 75% over the 3 days. So I don't know anything knew, but for now I am happy to see it rise.

There really isn't much that I can find googling that shows this might lead to a success story. Reality part of my brain tells me that this is probably not viable and I shouldn't get too attached, but.... I've been attached since I saw the 2nd line on the test clear back when it came back at only 6! Guess FRER really does read that well! I'm not bleeding/spotting as of now. I did bleed for about  3-4 days last week, almost like a light/medium AF, but then nothing, and I have had nothing since.

I'm sorry my posts have only been about this, but because I really want to document all pregnancies (even m/c), I really need to put this on here so that if I have similar situations, I will know what to look forward to. Thank you again for your friendship and support!

**UPDATE** Called the dr office when I realized Monday is a holiday and they are closed, so I won't be going in until Tuesday... Good thing my PCP put me at ease yesterday...