Not yet...

Still nothing to update. No AF, and I haven't taken an HPT since Friday. I might have to go get a dollar test today... We'll see. I have to go into town to fill up the gas tank so I might just venture over and see if they have any tests. If they do, I was meant to buy one and if they don't...well you know.

On the weather front, Hurricane Ida is expected to come right on top of us sometime tomorrow. I live just about the Florida panhandle on the AL border and they are saying it will come at us at Hurricane 1 strength when it hits the coast and may die to tropical storm hitting us. That means about 50mph wind and lots of rain and tornadic activity spinning of the storm... I'm scared. I have only been in AL for 2 years and I have only seen reminants of hurricanes, like the rain after. We have been flooded because of those, but I'm really worried about this! I will be doing a lot of praying and I don't plan on sending my kids to school tomorrow because I don't want them stuck there if something bad happens. In 2007, a tornado hit here and killed kids that were trapped under a wall at school. It was in the town we just moved from 30 miles away, so fears are very close to home and everyone takes these storms very seriously!

Just Because....

Just Because:

• You relax and don't monitor when you O'd, doesn't help you relax during what should be the 2ww.
• You  take 100 HPT's, doesn't mean you will get a positive!
• You want something to happen, doesn't mean it will!
• All you think about is having a baby, doesn't make it happen.
• Your TTC friends deserve get KU, doesn't make it so..

 

How crummy. I decided that the more I want this, the less likely it is becoming. I hate that I not only cry over AF visiting me every month, but every time one of my TTC friends gets a BFN or AF visits....it tears my heart apart as if it were my own. Every time I have another friend that has to give up the TTC dream because of money, age, family issues, or plain exhaustion....it saddens me deeper. I have so many scars on this TTC heart, and they aren't all mine, but they feel as if they are. Thank you to all you wonderful ladies that are soo supportive! You are precious gifts and I don't know how I could go through this without you!

 

Update: NO, AF has still not shown for me. I have temped the last 9 days and they have been post-O temps so I'm expecting her anyday since my LP is usually right around 12 days. I have probably taken a dozen tests in the last 2 weeks (thank goodness most were $$ tests), and the only lines I see are evap lines, and yes they happen very regularly on the $$ store brand test (in as little as 10 mins).

My Non-TTC Post

So yesterday was crazy! Here is a little info about me that some know and some don't. My DH is a widower, he has 2 adult children. The 19 year old son, K, lives with us. K is in the National Guard and that is about all he does...NOTHING else. He will be shipped out for basic training the end of December and will actually be forced to live an adult life for almost a year, I'm glad!

Anyway, on with my story. Thursday night K was to go to the city we just moved from and stay with some friends since he had to report at "Drill" on Saturday morning. The city is about 1 hr away from where we live now and he called his friends and told them he was on his way. Yesterday, when I was in Gaga land wanting to buy HPTs, I get a call from 1 of the friends saying K never made it to his house or the other friend he stays with. Then the other friends mother calls me and is worried saying K called her personally and he still hasn't made it. So the next few hours went on searching for K, calling hospitals, friends, jails, etc. My husband was told by Police Dept that a car (same as K's) was found in trees and boy was unconscious. We went into panic mode, but didn't know if it was K or not. We went fast as can be to pull my kids out of school since we didn't know what was going on, then we took off towards the city to see if we could find him. Turns out he was not the one in the wrecked car and he was found as we were approaching the city. He had decided to stay with a different friend, but didn't bother to call anyone and let them know.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad he is ok and not hurt.... But my DH lost 5 hrs of work with no pay, I pulled my 2 children out of school and we had everyone and their dog looking for him! Not to mention me and DH could have had a panic attack or stroke with our nerves going like they were.

Dang IT

They still don't have any $$ tests, they don't even have anymore of the $4 tests.... Guess I will need to venture to other stores...hmm, Walmart? Rite Aid? Where should I go? I think WalMart since I know they have $4 tests too.

Feelin Antsy

So, yeah...I'm about to take myself down to the Dol.lar Gen.eral and by some more HPTs.. I'm going through POAS withdrawals and I wanna see 2 lines!!!!!! THINK POSITIVE.....Power of "The Sec.ret".

Impatiently Waiting

Thats right, now on CD35 and nothing. I do know that I O'd, but not sure when. I know this because my temps have been at post-O for at least 7 days, I tried not to temp, but I couldn't stand it! I also remember having EWCM about 2 weeks ago. I had spotting about the same time but thought it was from FD, but not sure. I will continue to temp now because I'm waiting for the DROP. I keep telling myself there is no need to test and I'll just keep wasting money, but when I can get tests for a dollar and there is still a possibility....its really hard! I have not tested today, but I'm thinking that I will tomorrow, I don't have enough will power not too...

Oh yeah, on other news, I wasn't able to sign up for the month of posting thing, but if you will notice I have posted everyday this month so far, hopefully that won't jinx anything and I will continue.

I'm thinking...not this time????

I couldn't stand it no more. Even though the dollar store didn't have anymore tests, they did have the $4 tests that I don't usually get. Well, I took it after lunch, NEGATIVE. So maybe my $$ test was just a fluke. I am now on CD34 and no idea when I O'd so something needs to happen soon.